A pedophile not only harms minors, principally harmed by their abuses or sexual assaults, but also destroys the lives of adults, collateral victims of their criminal behavior. Ana, a fictitious name to preserve her real identity, was married and fathered three children in Gran Canaria with university professor José Manuel Quintana Santana, twice condemned by pederasty no entry into prison after the breakdown of the marriage.
50 years old, Ana now decides to relate her experience with her ex-husband, whom she only names by her colloquial name (Pepe) on one occasion during an hour of talk in which she prefers an indeterminate subject (he, person or father) , with the purpose of mitigating "rage, impotence and pain" for his lack of skill to warn of sexual abuse within his own family, a public apology but with particular recipients: his three children. Specifically, her second daughter, who cut off her relationship with her mother after moving to the peninsula for studies and at the beginning of last August, revealed her testimony under the also fictitious name of Paula in a state-run newspaper.
With the title "I am the daughter of a monster": the victim of the teacher of Las Palmas tells that the abuser was his father, published in The Spanish, a 20-year-old girl reflects on several episodes between 2003 and 2008, reported two years ago and admitted in a conformance sentence in mid-July, with the aim of raising awareness in society to help other disadvantaged children. In therapy and medication after suffering a depressive disorder mood and mood states, Paula also despises his father ("what you really feel is nothingness: absolute and complete indifference." Pedophiles are just a piece of shit occupying space in the world and, as when you find a piece in the street, the most you can feel is disgust ") and reproaches the rest of their environment and family, including mother (" it is impossible for something like that to happen and no one notices You will not point to anyone with your finger, their consciences will be responsible for punishing them ").
"I did not lower my sight"
Almost half a year later, "it hurts me to read and remember my daughter's words, more than the horrible eight years of marriage, I saw her badly, as depressed, in another world, it was hard for me to reach her, so hermetic, so closed It hurts me to have lost my daughter, I do not want to know anything about the other person, how I was going to realize that I was so serious or suspect such seriousness of what happened in the bathroom, if so, I do not know what I would have done but, then, I do not stay with crossed arms ", Ana responds about a masturbation of the ex in front of her daughter with 5 or 6 years, one of the facts proven in the conviction to 24 months in prison (no entry to commit before the crimes of his criminal record), an indemnity of 25,000 euros and a restraining order and incommunicado until 2022.
"On one occasion, sitting in the living room, the news named a man who had done something and she said that dad too," remembers Paula's mother, "but it was an inopportune moment, he was already collecting his things to leave in full litigation for the separation, and punctual, did not repeat itself, did not tell me again, I intervene if she had told me. " In fact, "every time there was a problem, I intervened, like when I talked to the tutor about a child who invited her to drugs and tried to touch her, I even followed the steps they told me in the police, although in the end it was solved with the expulsion from the institute, or as when a foreign man brushed up with the girls in a pool, intolerable, but the father ignored them, so I got angry with him and told him to go home, "he detailed before regretting that "She has forgotten it and only remembers other moments, she has crossed out to me like I did not do anything, because of some mistakes everything else does not matter, it hurts a lot".
Now, as if they fit the pieces of a puzzle, he admits: "It took a long time to bathe the girls, he also liked to put them on diapers or lie on the floor to play on top of him, it makes me very angry to remember him, much, much, I am very angry that I did not think that there was something behind, if I had not thought badly, how can I continue with someone like that? " Although "as a mother I have done everything I could to defend her in everything, her and her brothers, if that day I was not aware, I do not deserve to be crucified, please forgive me, I did not lower my eyesight and what I I did not see fit, my mother was surprised that I happened to think wrong with the luck I had had to marry an engineer, zero support, family machaqueo, questioning what you do and not, both mine and his, reproaches with everything, was too much, "Ana apologizes, maid" in a family of the before, a little strict, which was inculcated from girl that must endure in marriage, at work and everywhere "
Then "in love" with the boyfriend and husband, now they fit their ex-wife the "strange behaviors always noticed in him, suddenly he is fine and at the moment superagresive, he is a cold person, he has no approach to others, he does not worry or he tries to help people, laugh when something happens to a friend or relative, psychologists have said that he is bipolar and narcissistic, among other things, he knew he was a weird and bad guy because he is not a good person, but to such an extent … "And Ana shares, therefore, the definition of his daughter on the father, even aggravates it:" It is worse than a monster, worse than a piece of ice, which melts at room temperature, he is always the same, he has no sensibility, although he does not seem so, total insensitivity, he pretends to be very formal, but he is a man with one face on the street and another one inside. "
In addition to blind witness of pedophile touching in that "house of horrors", according to Paula, Ana also declares herself a direct victim of psychological abuse, macho violence by Dr. Quintana Santana. "He did not hit me, but he punched and broke things, I was hospitalized with anxiety crisis and the depression lasted five years, I had a terrible time, I lost my way, it was a lot of pressure at home and on the part of the family," mother to confirm the accusation included in the public letter of the middle daughter.
"When I told it at the Red Cross I realized what I had been living," admits Ana, "but in the police they told me that it was not worth the paperwork if I did not have witnesses because I would not get anything, I talked many years ago. , without as much sensitivity as now. "
A brave woman
Not all excuses or accusations, Paula's mother also admits mistakes: "I regret not knowing how to respond well when the girls entered adolescence, they had a difficult behavior like everyone else, but the two went in parallel, they magnified and it was a change so strong that there comes a time when you do not know your daughters, I got angry because of nonsense and after some discussions they went to the father's house ".
By then, summer of 2016, the National Police He detained José Quintana and several other pedophiles for possessing child pornography from the internet in a state operation against the corruption of minors, a crime for which he accepts a sentence of less than two years in prison. Therefore, Ana wants to thank the police for their work because "it was the trigger for her to break, opened her eyes, to denounce him", in addition to recognizing the task of the journalist Sofia C. Rodriguez because "offered Paula the opportunity to express themselves in public through The Spanish to get free. "
And, above all, he takes pride in the courage exhibited throughout the personal and judicial process by his middle daughter. "She has shown that she is a very brave woman", Ana concludes her public letter of maternal apology, better than declaration of hatred and revenge, of love and forgiveness.